Saturday, April 01, 2006

recognizing the road is at it's end, and a new path must be taken isn't difficult. resigning yourself to that task and actually turning around and backtracking is another matter entirely.

posted by F.G. Shaw @ 12:40 AM

6 Comments:

At 12:15 AM, Blogger Curtis said...

Dude...early midlife crisis? Sounds kind of like that...

 
At 2:16 PM, Blogger F.G. Shaw said...

if so i've been experiencing it for four years now

 
At 12:47 PM, Blogger Almighty One said...

Call me in a couple years when you've got an excuse, then I'll play the violin for you!
Weel put though, I like it.

 
At 2:40 PM, Blogger F.G. Shaw said...

what sort of excuse do i need? the fact that my life is stagnant? sure i don't have the same problems that you have bruce, nor do i have the same problems as curtis, or anybody else who reads my blogs. my problems are not theres and vice versa. i'm not prone to belittle anybody elses problems, especcially when they are genuine. do mine feel genuine? sure, at times, and others i do feel like they are rather trivial and i'm boobing.
the problem with my generation, our generation bruce (as you're only like a year older than me, i think that puts us in the same generation) is we've been taught to grab the american dream (see curtis' blog for that one) and you know what, for most of us it's unatainable.
we're not happy. we flounder. i'm an odd duck because i don't really want the american dream. and that makes me a near social pariah, especcially in this state. i could care about a wife and kids, a big house, and two cars in the driveway. i had (have) passion and the impetus to create, i just don't know where i put. that's my dead end. all the passion i once had for music, seems gone. it's not, it still creeps up from time to time when i'm listening to certain pieces, or occassionally even something i've written. the passion for theater is present, but i'm reaching a dead end with that now, as i either need to get on the boat and do it more seriously, or enroll in school and... well do it more seriously.
we all have our own dead ends bruce, i know you've got yours, just like i've got mine, and well all i can say is... let's hang in there brother. we'll make it. the road may go back a ways, but we'll find a cooler path to travel on.

 
At 6:37 AM, Blogger Nick Nielson said...

Frank, you just described one of my biggest fears....and how I fell right now, same excuses or problems or not....you're not alone in feeling this way....and I guess I'm not either. Which is kind of comforting, at least it is to me

 
At 10:59 AM, Blogger Curtis said...

I've fought with it on more than one occasion. One of the things I am really enjoying right now is the opportunity to do freelance work--seems like every time I'm starting to feel stagnant, someone comes along and offers me a chance to do something different.

But, even though I'm certain I'm on the right path for me, I sometimes wonder if I'm moving down it fast enough, or in the right direction... I love what I do (I credit that for being the reason that nobody at work believes I'm 38--everyone thinks I'm at least 10 years younger)--but there are times when I look around and go, "Is this as good as it's gonna get? Because I was, frankly, hoping for more..."

And I hear you on the passion for music...for me, it's been writing. Yeah, for all that I post on an almost daily basis, I don't write anywhere near as much as I wish I did...or at least, don't write what I wish I was writing. But I just can't summon up a sustained desire to do it. It goes in fits and spurts, and that's a lousy way to try and build a writing career. I still want to do that--but talking myself into doing the work for it is hard.

Don't really have any good advice here, either...all I can say is, you're not alone in it. And, like you said, hang in there...we'll work our way through it somehow.

 

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